Class Chalet

This was the most extraordinary chalet i've been to. There was so much freedom and space to express urself. 7 and 8 june 2006. 7 june...nothing much really happened except i called Kelvin over to give me a sense of security after traumatising events...8June was the one which made me think. U noe..Yau and I are like "role models", used to. Den he left and i was seriously traumatised. And in the chalet, there was my so-called "disciples" and they asked me for help many a times...i helped them. Yet i could not help myself. Seeing them enjoy themselves makes me think deep in my heart that I had made a wrong choice in my life to break it wif the guy who always treasured and loved me with his body and soul. And i regretted. Yau and I loved to make our characters in RO do the silliest poses to make them look like they're kissing or summat. So my "disciples" actually went ahead of me and made me feel this strong regret. I never thought I would have a break wif Yau. I always chose not to look at happy couples after that. It's a great heartpain n disappointment that I can help others but not myself. This great, confident Cassie has really been hurt pretty badly. Just that Cassie chose not to show it, dun wanna upset the others too. And there's Kelvin, fortunately. He's like this big strong shield around me whenever troubles come. And he never fails to make me smile. Maybe my "disciples" were wondering why was i 'sleeping' dat day. Well that was just me reflecting and shutting off outside sounds and sights(esp. Sights). Kelvin came again and he was there to sorta give me a sense of security. Thanks a bunch, KelKel~*hugs*